Drema Wrote:
Sorry, I am really confused about all of this and how it works.

A very dear friend gave me your web site for healing as I just recently had surgery and my right leg is shorter than the other.

Also I lost my husband of almost 44 years and I just cannot seem to get over it at all. Is there any help for me. He was my soul mate. I feel that I will never get over his loss. There are times that all I can do is scream and cry for him. He had no life insurance, so right now I am having to live with my son, and I need to be by myself. Please help me.

God bless you,
Drema

Dear Drema,
Thank you for writing and sorry for the confusion. I see that your in turmoil right now, and for that I am sorry. I sense you are someone who has been self sufficient most of your life, and that you do not give up easily! Having these turn of events in your life has/is slowing you down, and you are not ready to settle for your present situation.

Right now you are at a point in your life where you are basically feeling helpless, and not seeing anyway out of it anytime too soon. I don’t want to see you act out irrationally, be careful with your decision making. You must find something that will calm your restlessness. If you do not, you will find that you are not being true to yourself or those around you.

Your physical situation is not making it any easier on you to deal with the circumstances that have been placed before you. I realize that. Is there a possible solution to the unevenness of your legs. Maybe a special shoe can be made to balance out the one leg.

As far as having to live with your son, it may be your only option at this point in time, whether it be for financial or healing reasons. Try to be patient. It is never a walk in the park when our life changes, especially when we are not wanting or ready for it.

The loss of your husband must have been devastating and I am sorry for your loss! I am being shown a small box of some kind. It is being handed to you for keep sake. Your memories are held in this box.

The road in which we walk can be a bumpy one, and we walk it roughly at times. Take your time, be patient with your emotions, and physical body. I feel your spirit is heavy. I almost want to say you have some anger or resentment towards your husbands’ passing.

Please understand he did not do this to you to hurt you. It was his time to go home, and at the point that he passed, he needed to.

He is close by and hears your cries. I see him holding out his hand. All you have to do is reach out yours. Just because he has left you in the physical form, does not mean he has left your side. You will see each other again!

May I suggest some grief counseling if you have not done so as of yet. I also think you have had a series of unfortunate events take place in a short period of time, and that you may need some extra help dealing with them.

It is a good thing to get support. Sometimes someone else may have an idea or suggestion that otherwise you would not have known or thought of. (Just a thought)

It takes time to heal and adjust to a new life style. Be patient with yourself, and know this is not a final situation.